Starr Comes Back

People come, people go; we think, we live & exist. The universe has its ways of communicating with us. It's expressed as people, signs, icons & other symbols or meanings that we use to make sense of the world around us. The individual who exists in his or her social collective is wired to think …

Happy Birthday, Starr

The sun gleamed for sometime and disappeared behind the clouds soon after. It behaved like someone who was isolated by the swarms of people around them; akin to empty shells, with one thought after the other, creating one emotion after another. Starr's voice reverberated in his head again, like it had been for the last …

Emotions Make Life Better

For many years, it has been commonly accepted knowledge that anxiety and depression are ravaging households and societies across the world. In developing, developed, emerging or any other label one ascribes to a nation-state or country, these metaphorical twins, anxiety and depression seem to have become an integral part of life. In fact, there are …

Wars, Flashing Teeth, Chaos and Solace

There was a time, when Sins would have given anything, including his decrepit looking, sentimental value possessing black shirts to anyone who so ever desired it, if only, if only he were given a sense of hope, a calm, rational, guiding voice, so to speak in his life. Maybe, it was already there, maybe it …

The Call of Starr

"I just want you to know; I've found a reason for me; to change how I used to be; a side of me no one knew; a Reason to start over new, and the reason is you". Hoobastank blared out at him from his phone and he couldn't agree more. He had spent much of …

I’ll Love You Long After You’re Gone

Note: this post is not a sad love letter, although the title sounds like one. Its a lyrical line from Philips Philips' popular song, 'Gone Gone Gone'. Every single time I listen to it, it reminds me of Starr, whom I adore. Unfortunately, we cannot be together due to factors beyond our control. All I …

Love and Markets

"For you, for you, I'm not moving on, I'll love you long after you're gone" He had loved. He still did. For all the time he had spent writing down his feelings, never had he imagined that it would come down to this, a mere existence racked up with guilty pleasures and productivity hacks. A …

The Life Of Hearts

One cold, gloomy, overcast morning, over a cup of freshly brewed coffee, an Ethiopian blend which he had procured from an import house, Sins could suddenly, crystal clearly remember the entirety of the life he had led for the past four years. He could see every individual he had met and every circumstance from the …

When Life Throws A Special Person At You Unexpectedly

He closed his eyes and waited for Starr to arrive before it hit him: he had reached the place one day too early. Cursing his memory for once, he decided to stay and have his dinner, mentally making a note to drop her a message and remind her about tomorrow. It wasn't as if he …

The Queen And The Terrace

She walked in, he froze up. Reflexively. It felt cute in a way that he couldn't speak. He left to have a cigarette till his knees got weak. Escape was just a nod and a casual wave, towards no one in particular, but an omnipresent being that seemed to corner him whenever she came around. …

Life Has Just Begun

He hadn’t dreamt in a while, not for the past couple of months. It was the best of times. Days would go by in a blur of content, commute, calls, coffee and cash. To and fro would he swing from destination to the next, as if he were the harbinger of joys, sorrows and everything …

She Stopped His World

When she appeared, his world stopped. Like a plume of radiance enveloping him from time to time, he imagined her face, in all her glory, as if the goddess had chosen him to reveal her human form to. He was fortunate. Of that he was sure. For how else, had he mustered up the courage …

The Quintessential Modern Life

"She's got a smile that it seems to me, reminds me of childhood memories, when everything was as great as the bright blue sky" "Really?" "Yes" "Awesome. So have you told her?" "That she's got a smile that reminds me of the bright blue sky? Not directly. I wrote a letter a few months back. …

Someone To Hear Your Prayers? Someone Who Cares? Its You.

"I hear her voice in the morning hour, she calls me. The dawn reminds me of her presence, a few miles away. Walking down the road, I get a feeling that I should have told her yesterday, that it's her energy that I feed off, in spirit, in conversation, in times of good and bad, …

Don’t Let Anything Affect Your Productivity

She had declined to speak to him and had rejected his call to her, the previous night. He let it be. Still confused and slightly hurt at this point, on account of the niggling pointy feeling in his chest region, he tried to calm himself down and gulped a few ounces of water, his mind …

Whisper Words Of Wisdom, Let it Be.

"Oh, its what you do to me, Oh, its what you do to me" He was at the airport, having just finished a hearty meal, and was now, awaiting the boarding call for the flight that would take him home, for all of two days. His cousin sister was getting married, and they had been …

Your Problems Will Not End. Make Them Better.

She was sitting right opposite to him in another room and the walls were transparent. He pretended to work, clicking random icons on his screen, unlocking his smartphone from time to time, every few seconds, in a bid to look busy in case she was looking at him. He wondered what was up with him, …

Believe And It Shall Happen. How To Push Yourself Towards The Greater.

He let himself loose into the topic at hand and immersed into it like an Olympic level diver executing his dive, perfected after years of honing his craft. He didn't emerge from it for several hours, just checking his phone after every twenty minutes or so, for messages if any. That was the thing, he …

Do You Know What To Do?

"I love, love the way that you talk, it feels like Adele, singing to me" He mumbled the lyrics for a few minutes and let the tune play inside his head indefinitely, leaving the task of regulating the lyrics, going forwards to his sub-conscious mind, while he tried his best to shift his focus towards …

Make The World Yours In spite Of The Urge To Give Up and Let Go

Like an electron, he charged towards her, before realizing he was day dreaming at his desk. He had been reading a foreign policy book about the rise of Asia and how its soon to be more than five billion people would go on to reclaim their position as the world's leading geo-political region, a position …

Are You Having The Wildest Dreams Possible

"People are nicer, warmer and happier than you think. Give them a chance and don't be afraid to get hurt. That's what makes you who you are today. And you're pretty amazing" They had hugged briefly before she made her way towards the metro, on her way back to her home city the next day. …

Mr. Sins Goes To The Pool

The lights at his office gradually began turning off, one room by one room, as he lurked in a corner, swiping left and right on Tinder, like a prospective miner digging for gold. It wasn't late, the minute hand on his watch showed nine minutes after eleven in the night, a full eight hours before …

The Sins Of Reality

He felt the familiar cold streaks of lightning, like small jolts of cold blooded electricity that morphed into stabs of emptiness around the region of his chest, like sharpened blades that sliced away at his arteries from time to time. He wasn't a fan of this feeling, but it had become a benign habit, so …

Mind And Matter – The Unresponsiveness.

He imagined her smile in his mind's eye and smiled. She wasn't responding to any of his text messages. Presuming, she was busy, he tried his best to let it go, but couldn't. He just couldn't, which seemed very immature on his part, considering he had other friends to chat to, people whom he knew …

The Heart Of Sins

He really liked her. Mysteriously, seeing her everyday made his day always brighter, like a sole positive thought floating amongst an ocean of mixed and negative. Careful, to not make it seem too obvious to her, he would automatically switch to a routine, whereby he would transform into someone who gave out advice. Like the …

When Fate Gives You What You Want, Its Beautiful.

"Who gives a shit?" "I do" "I don't give a shit" "Fine, don't. I give a shit though" "I don't give a shit. Fuck you and don't talk to me ever again" "Fine then, have a great life. Take care. Call me in case you need any help in the future", so saying Sins turned …

She Will Make You A Dreamer. So Would He, For It Went Both Ways.

She radiated a field of energy around her which proclaimed strength, confidence and sass in capital letters coloured with the deepest possible shade of blood red. Especially her eyes. Transfixed on that stare, he had felt the vibrations of something deeper, the possibility that her way of thought wasn't along the mainstream lines of rules …

The Time To Learn Is Now. The Time To Kill is Now.

He looked at her standing with her back towards him, several feet away, immersed in her Mac book, and promptly turned away, as if guided by his legs magically, independently from the power of his mind, when his mind realized the folly, only to retrace his steps back towards her. Closing his eyes for a …

She Came, She Looked, She Left, She Left Him Dazed.

Sins realized the impression that he conveyed to strangers, professionally or otherwise wasn't particularly great nor particularly bad, which was fine in retrospect, but not fine from a networking and people-friendly point of view. The problem was he was too nice to people, in a world, where every person indulged in personal skirmishes, waiting and …

It Will Happen. Open Your Eyes And Live In The Moment.

He felt a surge of emotion, as if magnetically attracted to the lady who was standing a few feet from him, pouring herself some coffee, a generous topping of superfine sugar seemingly apt for her, in his eyes. He diverted his gaze quickly, aware that he was staring, and with one last fleeting glance from …